i'll forgets and pretend nothing happens.

one thing. one word. one god knows how i feel right now. knows how much i treasure my friends. willing to do anytg as long they are happy. only god knows how much its hurts for me ryte now. u wants it, i'll give u that. like i have said. once deleted u cannot undelete it.

one thing i was always wanted to say to you this. but i just realise that u are not worth it. i remain quite but u push it. i will still remain quite & as thou i nvr met u b4.

This is what i feared most.. when it comes and really im expecting that person to atleast wished me.. yet till now she didnt..

This is why i hate my birthday since long time ago coz they didnt care.. and it makes me as if today is my normal day.. i wish i never born nor have a birthday..

really i hate 3 march !!

20/02/2011

sometimes u really need your friend to be atleast there for u and not your guy or family. sometimes they might be the most understanding person when u are down. not ur family nor ur guy.. but thats not for me, thats why sometimes im trying to fight this lonelyness. ll more days and i hope my wish to come true. wishing to have atleast a friend to be thr for me.. not him or my family..

19/2/2011

Whatever happens u have to atleast go on. don't stop, keep always trying..

gathering on 12/2/11

Gathering tmr and i just can't wait for it to come. tent is one problem. hope she is home tmr.

i'm not sure why, but i have this feeling that it won't be a great one for me. i tot its for only this person bday, but its not. wth. and no one tell me about it till just now. watever it is hope everyone is happy.

Why i don't want to celebrate my bday?

birthdays is for us to remember.. remember to be thankful that we are still alive. on that day we were born, we are given a chance to live and learn about the world. our age is just a number, it will slowly grow to a bigger number.. but, will we grow to a better person & follow the right path to heaven? we won't know, its for us to decide. whats the point of celebrating when u do not know the meaning of life?? when times flies and birthday came, its for us to think back. did we live for the sake of living? or did we live for the sake of god?

just think back to the old days.....

My birthday is on the way..

25 more days. And i'm hoping the day will not come.

Birthday is always a boring day for me but for them is so fun. i wonder why. its been long since i celebrate. since primary 5, i last celebrate it. so ya.. im not looking foward to it anw. life is so unfair. =(

17 days in r/s with him.. and so far he is the best Bf ever.. hahaha.. =) hoping this r/s will last long and will stay strong too.

=) / =(

sometimes things happen for a reason....

hmm.. another week gone and many more weeks to come..

trying to get B for my cp.. have to buck up sia.. haiz.. im just so tired.. i need cash asap.. bnyk hutang la.. haiz.. no one really knows my difficulty in life yet.. everyone seems to know i will always be okay, great.. but no, im not.. coz nobody aint perfect..

mostly all my friends ade problems.. and i know that if they are down, someone must be there to keep them strong.. and i will try to be that 1 person to keep em' strong.. i don't mind if they don't realise it.. as long they get back on their feet, i'll be happy....

I guess u didn't know.

haiz.. just as i expected.. i knew this day will come.. the day when u have forgotten all those things that had happened.. i'll stay but i'll change.. i'll keep that promise to myself.. and u'll be sorry my boy..

it really hurts me alot.. really bad..

GREAT! just GREAT..

which one u prefer? me being a pole or a wall?
OR u prefer me not existing in this world at all?

09012011 -1:47

Had a great time with friends!

Today i went to my grandma house to take my beg and charger.. oh well my grandma cooking is sedap! Then plan to met mus at library.. i got lost at payar lebar.. hahaha! luckly my uncle called.. reach at library at 8+ and waited for mus to finish working.. Met new friends, friends of hers.. well its exciting thou.. both are siblings... nice people.. well we went to teh tarik for mkn.. my teat.. =) food aint so bad.. then we took pics near her blok.. geez.. Great friend i have.. and great lib friends too.. =) hahahaha!

Me loving this day!

2:16 AM

I'm bored.

Ade MSN mcm siak .. Online buat pe ? geez .. i want my Itouch back lah !! Whoever stole it . damn you ! i needa money to send kitty to vet, beli Iphone, Fooood & gy shopping !! I'm so lost w/o my Itouch .. haizz .. gotta save money .. =(

08012011 - had a boring holiday

Everyone is busy with their own lives & friends.

Holidays isn't fun w/o my friends.. tommorrow im going to my grandma hse.. and sam pulak tk bleh jumpe.. haiz..mus pulak kerje.. aku pulak ni... bbual ngan tembok lgk bagus.. sometimes you ppl just don't realise.. when u make promises, don't break it.. if you can't help it but to break it, don't make any promises.. coz u might not know, who did u hurt.. coz i've been hurt before.. and its aint nice..

Geez.. i need you now..

Dedicate this to my friends..

well.. its a nice song thou. everytime i think of my friends, it will just make me smile..

08012011

Midnight

hmm.. i don't really understand why u have to be like that? since mus already okay.. being normal again.. why don't you just be the old you again? at times we fight, we cried and we bullshit each other. but it will go back to the old ways.. you have to wait for the moment to come. not trying to force your own way back. well i just hope everything will go fine..

07012011

Everything seem to misplace..

I wish i can tell all my problem to my friends but it is so hard to let it go. they have their own prob and i have mine.. seeing them having to work so hard for money makes me wonder....