i'll forgets and pretend nothing happens.

one thing. one word. one god knows how i feel right now. knows how much i treasure my friends. willing to do anytg as long they are happy. only god knows how much its hurts for me ryte now. u wants it, i'll give u that. like i have said. once deleted u cannot undelete it.

one thing i was always wanted to say to you this. but i just realise that u are not worth it. i remain quite but u push it. i will still remain quite & as thou i nvr met u b4.

This is what i feared most.. when it comes and really im expecting that person to atleast wished me.. yet till now she didnt..

This is why i hate my birthday since long time ago coz they didnt care.. and it makes me as if today is my normal day.. i wish i never born nor have a birthday..

really i hate 3 march !!

20/02/2011

sometimes u really need your friend to be atleast there for u and not your guy or family. sometimes they might be the most understanding person when u are down. not ur family nor ur guy.. but thats not for me, thats why sometimes im trying to fight this lonelyness. ll more days and i hope my wish to come true. wishing to have atleast a friend to be thr for me.. not him or my family..

19/2/2011

Whatever happens u have to atleast go on. don't stop, keep always trying..

gathering on 12/2/11

Gathering tmr and i just can't wait for it to come. tent is one problem. hope she is home tmr.

i'm not sure why, but i have this feeling that it won't be a great one for me. i tot its for only this person bday, but its not. wth. and no one tell me about it till just now. watever it is hope everyone is happy.

Why i don't want to celebrate my bday?

birthdays is for us to remember.. remember to be thankful that we are still alive. on that day we were born, we are given a chance to live and learn about the world. our age is just a number, it will slowly grow to a bigger number.. but, will we grow to a better person & follow the right path to heaven? we won't know, its for us to decide. whats the point of celebrating when u do not know the meaning of life?? when times flies and birthday came, its for us to think back. did we live for the sake of living? or did we live for the sake of god?

just think back to the old days.....

My birthday is on the way..

25 more days. And i'm hoping the day will not come.

Birthday is always a boring day for me but for them is so fun. i wonder why. its been long since i celebrate. since primary 5, i last celebrate it. so ya.. im not looking foward to it anw. life is so unfair. =(

17 days in r/s with him.. and so far he is the best Bf ever.. hahaha.. =) hoping this r/s will last long and will stay strong too.

=) / =(

sometimes things happen for a reason....

hmm.. another week gone and many more weeks to come..

trying to get B for my cp.. have to buck up sia.. haiz.. im just so tired.. i need cash asap.. bnyk hutang la.. haiz.. no one really knows my difficulty in life yet.. everyone seems to know i will always be okay, great.. but no, im not.. coz nobody aint perfect..

mostly all my friends ade problems.. and i know that if they are down, someone must be there to keep them strong.. and i will try to be that 1 person to keep em' strong.. i don't mind if they don't realise it.. as long they get back on their feet, i'll be happy....